i deserve nothing at all and yet You still gave me the very best. 

Thank You Lord.

first of all, i seriously feel SUPER BLESSED AND LOVED BY GOD, FAMILY AND FRIENDS. I LOVE YOU GUYS.

gotten many surprises today. 

okay, first of all, i was pretty surprised but dion called me exactly at 12.00am and wished me happy birthday. not tt we're not good friends, but i just didnt expect him to call me personally. haha. tt was the start of the unexpected(s)

found a waterbottle full of love notes and sweets in my bag when i sit down at my seat (after running abt the church, settling some SING money matters:)) for sunday sch. shocked. rlly, i love all the notes more than the sweets, whether you guys believe anot.

having dawn fellowship sharing and all of a sudden, shimu passed me her phone and it was esther on the line. mini surprise 1. (major surprise number 2 )shortly followed by zhiyang and zhiyi appearing with a cake and shimu giving flowers and handmade rose pillow:) loves:)

ling ting and qiwen appearing at my doorstep with a cake! they've been waiting for me since 4 for me to get home. feel so bad, but nvtheless, i love you guys. so sweet! yup yup. holland v italian food tml:):):)

alvin+family and joeyee+family came to bukit batok to eat dinner with me to "celebrate" my birthday. and received a watch. shocks. didnt expect them to buy me a gift. was shocked but very happy. haha

and apart from receiving well wishes from churchies, nursing friends, closer sec sch friends, i've also received smses, msn and fb wall posts from friends that i have not seen or talk to for a very long time. and when i reply their msgs, i get to update myself on how they are. some, whom i have abit more time to, will start talking to them and we will talk abt how we use to interact in the past. 

looking back, my teen years were pretty happening, havent wasted it away. haha. very grateful for all the friends i've made and rlly treasure all the memories. now i'm entering the next exciting phase of my life. hopefully it's gonna be as eventful as the decade that had just passed:)

it took us the past 2 nights and one whole afternoon today to top it up to 6100words.

regardless of what the grade is, i'm proud of it.

now it's time for another miracle! 2500 chinese words in 2 wks. gulp. i dun even know what should i write on! :(

the next 2 wks is probably the scariest 2 wks ever. 

1 15% assignment+ 1 pharmaco test(they nv get tired of giving us test eh!)+1 chinese verse test+1 chinese verse essay= a very jolly disaster ahead;)

it's alright! at least i have my SOAR camp to look forward to:):):) and my fantastic holiday plans lined up for me. press on carmen. 1 more month!

A classmate of mine didnt pass assessment though because she couldnt expel air bubbles from her syringe and exceeded the given time(fyi:we need to expel these air bubbles so to prevent embolism and giving the wrong dose of medicine). personally, i thought she wasnt entirely responsible cause she's allocated to be in the last slot of the day and the needles tend to be "recycled" through the day and arent usually in the best condition when comes to her turn. but instead of being sore and complaining abt how unfair it was, she took it at her stride and just told me that she hopes that the reassessment date dun clash with any of our upcoming assignments. with so many things at hand, she rlly encouraged me alot, to be motivated and press on. i feel so guilty and so "small", complaining abt everything under the sun. hm, pretty spoiled eh. oops.

as much as i do not want to fail my practical assessment, it then comes then question "am i competent enough to serve real patients". if i just want to pass the skill without being rlly good in it, am i putting the patients that i'm going to serve in the future at risk? i dunno. it always seems like a conflict of interest. on 1 hand i'm running out of time and re-assessment means squeezing more time out of no time, but when i think of re-assessment as a way to ensure safer practice in the wards in the future.... it might not be such a bad thing afterall... darn! i'm not sure if i wanna pass or fail right now....

i cant wait for weekends but i dun want the wk to end yet

i cant wait to go to the wards but i dun wanna start working yet

i cant wait for this semester to be over but i have yet to finish my work

i cant wait for exams to be over so i can relax but i havent finish studying

i cant wait for movies to come out but i wished they would come out later when i aint so busy

i look forward to see terry back but i dun want next wk to pass too fast cause i need time 

i cant wait for my besties to come back from aussie but i dun want my exams to come

i cant wait for mr right to appear but i dunno what to do if he appears, so i kinda hope he dun appear first... 

i want to get married by 24 but i dunno if i'm mature enough by then

i wanna be more mature yet i dun wanna age (come on ladies, admit this!)

i know i need time and i dunno why am i still blogging

i am in a love hate relationship with time 

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