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Monday, November 27, 2006
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went to the hospital today with peili to visit her primary sch friend. walked quite abit, was under the rain quite alot too. its been around 11 months since i've stepped into a hospital. well, her friend had puenothorax, dun ask me what's that.. i'm not rlly sure either. think is that air will escape out from the lungs and get between the chest wall and the exterior of the lungs...which is not good. yup.it seems quite serious, and think he has to go for an op, but strangely, i dun rlly feel anything. i mean that's bad, but i just have the mentality that he's gonna be alright, going thru an op is nothing serious except for the fees. and i dun like it. the same thing occurred to me when dad's in the hospital. i mean, they say its bad when a person to re-transferred back to the ICU. moreover is my dad, but i dun feel exceptionally worried that time. i was like "huh, ICU no chairs around the bed one leh. no place to sit". OMG, wo hai si ren mah? perhaps i'm fortunate, perhaps i'm ignorant. but the concept of life and death hardly seem real to me. my paternal grandpa passed away when i was a year old? i didnt know a thing. my maternal grandpa passed away when i was p6. it was sad, but now, its just like before. since he was always in hk, i wasnt close to him. so its seems like he's constantly in hk to me now. i feel bad. rlly bad. maybe i'm blessed as no one rlly close to me left me forever. but i wouldnt want to go thru that ordeal to truly feel for those who are in pain or mourning for loved ones who have moved on... darn. i rlly wished that there's such thing as penisive. so i could put some complex thoughts into it and revisit them only when i have the energy to... it gets on my nerves when i just couldnt get some thoughts out of my mind. raar |
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