there's a season for love, but there's also a season for singlehood.

if God has plans for eternity, He would have an awesome plan for me.

was really funny, heard Dr Tan shared during vcf. apparently, it's quite common among some friends of mine to wonder if they're gonna be single forever, and Dr Tan addressed this question today. she was saying "you know, you have to be called to be single. if you hadnt heard any divine voice that you're gonna be single, you'll get married." haha, how reassuring for me. i'm single now for a reason. and i'm quite sure i havent got any divine voices telling me i'm gonna be single forever... so... haha, it's just a matter if i get married at 24, but... i can agar agar assume i would most probably end up married:) haha. well, but it's difficult to believe at times that my life is all planned out, and i just have to trust that it's gonna turn out just well. maybe it's just human nature, ppl tend to feel vulnerable when they're not control. but in life, things are just not within our control. so i guess let's just end with Psalm 139?

Psalm 139

¹ O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.

² You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

³ You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

⁴ Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.

⁵ You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.

⁶ Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

⁷ Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

⁸ If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
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⁹ If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

¹⁰ even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

¹¹ If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"

¹² even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

¹³ For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

¹⁴ I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

¹⁵ My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

¹⁶ your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

¹⁷ How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

¹⁸ Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

¹⁹ If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!

²⁰ They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.

²¹ Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?

²² I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.

²³ Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

²⁴ See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.