realised i didnt post this last october.

可能。。。是还没找到能避风的港湾吧。。。

it has been crazy busy these days at work because of new year. busy-ness, is a scary thing, it is a catalyst to numbness. i realise i complain much more these days, losing my temper with myself more and dreading to handle/help some of the patients' relatives. the way out of this, is to always remind myself not to be numb. but how? being a person who resisted to change, i never thought much about changing the environment that im in but recently, i've been challenged (in one way or another) to rlly consider if i should continue to stay in a&e after 2 years. ive heard ppl saying that once you're comfortable in a certain area, maybe it's the que for you to move on/change an environment. i never really believed in that statement, until now? but change is not easy. so the only way to remain sane is to always be in an uncomfortable environment? to always be on my guard, to be prepared for any change to come my way? its not cool. recalling the first few months at work, it is NOT a pleasant experience. and till now, i'm not even a confirmed staff and im feeling numb already? this is bad. bleahs. what a brand new year.

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