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Saturday, March 31, 2012
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i cant help but to feel very disturbed tonight. a dr, maybe even a friend that i've respected has quitted the department. all because he has been diagnosed with a rare cardiac condition, Brugada syndrome, that increases risk of sudden cardiac failure. hearing from my friend describe this dr's condition, i can hardly comprehend the kind of shock and fear that runs through his mind everyday. having sudden VFs and not knowing if you'll pull through the next hour. because of this, the EMD evt would be very dangerous for him. although he has an implantable cardioveter-defilbrator inserted, it will still be dangerous for him to perform CPR and he cant risk defilb-ing patients, so on and so forth. a very capable servant of God who has a heart for missions and now, its almost like all hopes are lost. as i look at this brother's story, i cant help but to scream "unfair" in God's face. as much as i have reasoned out why God allowed sufferings, no arguments i had before could help me comprehend why God allowed this to happen. all i could do now is to believe God is sovereign and to also count my blessings. i take back all my complains abt working on weekends, all the loneliness and drifting apart from fellowships and friends and i'm truly reminded how it is indeed a privilege and gift to serve God in my area of work. maybe in due time, i will be able to see God's beautiful plan behind this ordeal. maybe on hindsight, this will help me understand the issue of suffering a bit more. as for now, i pray, rlly rlly pray that the dr will be able to continue his medicine practice and help him pull through these tough times. For we do not want you to be ignorant, brothers, of the affliction we experienced in Asia. For we were so utterly burdened beyond our strength that we despaired of life itself. Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God who raises the dead (2 Cor 1:8,9). |
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